So I’m currently at a resort, on vacation, having a good time. Yesterday I packed my bag, drove five hours on crowded highways, and finally arrived at my destination. Oh, and before I left, I thought I was going to throw up. Anxiety is super fun.
I was stressed out about going on vacation. Sounds silly, right? Vacations are all about relaxation, who could possibly get stressed about those? Well, I specialize in the impossible, people. I am quite capable of getting anxious over a vacation, though it has been relaxing since I got here.
Me and My Special Skills
So, a lot of my anxiety was due to procrastination. I probably should have started my summer reading assignment a lot sooner. Getting some college applications done probably would have been helpful too, but I avoided both of those. I spent time making music, writing, playing video games, pretty much anything that didn’t involve school. The very thought of school stressed me out.
I know the reasoning behind that. I missed a lot of school last year due to my anxiety, and when I did go, I had a panic attack almost every single day. I twitched uncontrollably whenever I tried to do homework, and taking tests made me feel like I was going to explode. To put it bluntly, school was hell, so it’s no surprise to me that the prospect of beginning my senior year has filled me with dread.
Dealing with Anxiety
I can’t exactly skip out on senior year, and I would also like to go to college after I graduate, so I needed to find a way to get it together. I was lazy when it came to doing that, but luckily for me, Leanne was not. She told me to “get started already”, and I realized that was exactly what I needed to do. If I was going to reduce my anxiety over senior year and college applications, I needed to take the plunge and start working.
I started slow. I read a few chapters of my summer reading book, and I started writing one of my college essays. I didn’t accomplish a whole lot, but I made way more progress than I did in the entirety of the month of July. I’m taking baby steps right now, but even baby steps will get me where I’m going as long as I’m patient. If there’s something that’s making you feel stressed right now, you don’t have to take off running. Just take some baby steps to get started; they’re a lot easier that way. You’ll still get where you’re going.